Man, when life hits ya, it can sometimes hit ya hard!
Every once in awhile I go through a period of intense overwhelming stress. For whatever reason, my entire world turns upside down- anything that can happen, does happen, and generally, it happens all at once. Murphy’s law at its best, really.
Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong.
-Murphy’s Law
Life has been crazy overwhelming since the beginning of September and today, is the first time things have been calm and peaceful.
I believe these random periods of chaos is the Universe’s way of balancing itself out. I generally tend to only have a few bad days (sometimes a few bad weeks) throughout an entire year. So, technically, that’s not too bad, given that the rest of my year is fantastic!
I guess, after having a few good years though, I was probably due for a couple of bad months. Perhaps, that was the case this time, because this period of chaos was a doozie!
Both my kids got sick (twice), one of them was hospitalized, while the other was out of school for an entire week. They both had a common cold and then later, strep with a mild viral infection. This was the root of all my stress, especially, since the beginning of this month, we went from amazing health-care insurance to “What kind of health-care insurance is this?” Basically, our premiums doubled and we lost really good benefits.
But, that wasn’t all I was dealing with…
I am in charge of everything. On top of the average domestic duties of a modern housewife and mother, I am also in charge of paying bills, budgeting finances, unclogging toilets, routine car maintenance, and household maintenance, such as changing air filters, fixing appliances, and taking out the trash. I do this, all in between raising kids, washing laundry, and putting food on the table. I truly do everything, except bring home a paycheck. Given enough time in the day, I could probably do that too.
I am not complaining though. I truly do not mind doing everything. Fortunately, my OCD brain is really good at managing chaos; however, I am not a robot. I have human limitations and boundaries. No matter how organized and smoothly efficient things are, I do, on occasion, get exhausted, stressed, and overwhelmed and that is okay. Sadly, the problem is when there is no emotional support for when I do get overwhelmed.
My husband’s extreme anxiety, mild case of Asperger’s, and fear of responsibility (hypengyophobia), can be quite challenging when I am in need of emotional support and/or a little extra help with the daily biz. For the most part, I am just left to figure it out on my own- which takes time.
It also didn’t help, that I got sick too. I don’t think with Strep, but certainly, a mild viral infection. Basically, after everyone got better, all the “fires” were put out, the house was clean, and everyone was back on tract, my body broke down and I finally got sick too. I also broke down emotionally- I felt as if I had taken on the world and the world had won. Things got so overwhelming, I struggled with a sense of time. I wasn’t on top of everything. A lot of things, minor things, fell through the cracks. But, in the end, all turned out okay.
I am good now. I know what day it is. My house is clean. My to-do-list is small. I am grateful for all things little and large. And, I also have a smile on my face- with a cup of coffee in my hand.
This is how my Universe works. I have periods of good days and bad days, more good days than bad days, and the few bad days I do have, are just thrown in to balance out chaos. This is life. Understanding it, makes those bad days not so bad.
Hope everyone has a great Monday! If you are having a bad day, week, or even a month, remember better times are just around the corner. ❤
It’s impressive how positive you are!
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Thank you. 🙂
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