Stinking Thinking With Bad News

According to my mom, the news is not good.

I took her to the ER this week.  It’s been nearly two weeks and her test results still have not come in and she feels her health is getting worse.   While waiting for the test results, the only thing she can do is go to the ER (emergency room).

Luckily, my mom had an appointment in the big city for an unrelated health concern (torn shoulder muscle) and the nearest ER in town is at a hospital that is a part of a really awesome (I did my homework, literally) healthcare system that I have been trying to convince her to go to since Day-1 of all her troubles.  So, later that day, after her appointment, my mom agreed to go into the ER.

To Blunt To Bare

The physicians at this hospital are extremely blunt and straight-forward.  They don’t sugar-coat anything (I know from personal experience during both my pregnancies), but this is why I love them.

My mom doesn’t take criticism or bad news very well (who does); however, sending her into the den of blunt wolves was probably good for her.

In short, according to my mom, the doctor was leaning towards the ugly “C” word.  There is a slight chance her troubles could just be related to Rheumatoid Arthritis (symptoms are the same), but the duration of these symptoms can also be the cause of the ugly “C” word.

According to my mom, the doctor agreed the tests she is waiting on from her doctor at home are taking too long and advised her to go elsewhere.  He also expressed his concern that her troubles might be “passed the point of no return,” in which is something nobody ever wants to hear.

Stinking Thinking: A Push Forward Or A Slump Backwards

Bluntness is either going to push her forward to the right specialists or cause her to slump backwards in fear of the unknown and waste time waiting for results from the wrong people.  Nobody can force her into the right direction, but I worry her “stinking” thinking may have already decided for her.

My mom refers to thinking errors such as “black and white” thinking and “catastrophe” thinking as “stinking” thinking.  Negative thoughts that cloud judgement.IMG_0249

I worry that if my mom truly thinks her medical troubles are to the point of no return, she might start to think, “why bother getting tested, if it might already be too late?

Personally, I am not entirely convinced that a professional doctor who couldn’t perform the necessary tests would actually conclude something is passed the point of no return.  Instead, he probably, most likely, suggested that if she waits any longer to get the necessary tests (biopsy), it could be too late.  When the ugly “C” word is involved, ears can often be deceiving, because nobody wants to hear about the possibility of the “C” word.

According to all her doctors, including the ER doctor, it “could” also just be Rheumatoid Arthritis causing mayhem, masking itself like the dreadful ugly “C” word.   Even so, it is always better to be safe than sorry and get all the necessary tests done anyway.  All we can do is pray that she gets her slow muscles in gear and move forward into the right direction.  Prayers for my mom.

Moving Forward And Enjoying Life

A wise person (my mom) once said to me, “You can’t worry about things that haven’t happened yet.”

It’s true.  Without affirmative test results of the good or the bad, we can’t worry about it right now.  As we wait, we must move forward and enjoy Life as much as we can.  I do have my worries of the future though, like how the loss of a immediate family member will impact us as a whole; but for now, I know that is energy that would be better spent on making more memories with those that I love that will last a lifetime.  ❤

Update:  Test results are in, but doctor wants to wait until Monday to “discuss” them.  Praying for the best for my mom.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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